An Awesome Mind

Pull up a chair. It’s time to get personal again. Enter the wonderful world of Matthy again. So much has changed in my life since I stopped posting regularly on here, taking a sort of hiatus to focus on other things in my life. I really really miss doing this. Getting back on here and starting to write again is giving me this rush of happiness and excitement I haven’t felt in a while. It is remarkable. It is like I am filling in a gaping hole in my heart that has been in need of some tender loving care for some time now.

I see that there is no longer a daily writing prompt on here or a Weekly Photo Challenge, two things I really loved doing because they sparked so much creativity in me and fired up ideas. Not that I really needed them but they were like security blankets or safety nets, catching you when you are in need of an idea or afraid that what you are going to post isn’t really that worthy of reading.

So here is some things that have happened…

I’ve restarted my first YouTube channel and it is actually doing pretty decent now and I’ve never been more happy making videos than ever before. I’ve started a YouNow channel/broadcast and have grown that tremendously, meeting and making so many friends across the entire world, some in my own state, something I never thought would even be possible. It has truly been an inspirational journey for me and it is only getting started.

Shaylee, Shaylee, Shaylee, Shaylee. Literally the greatest friend to come out of YouNow. We have learned so much about each other and have shared so many experiences. Fortnite every night it literally seems now. Her mom passed away in October 2018 from Stage 4 progressive cancer. Very sad and emotional moment for the both of us.

There are many others on there that have become such a big part of my life. Within a few months of streaming, I met a nice girl on there named Carolina (last name still up for debate) and we kind of fell into a relationship, talking with each other every day and video chatting, watching baseball games together, listening to music with each other. That was in July 2017, we still are friends to this day and hopefully I want to meet this nice sweet girl someday and maybe start dating her in real life.

I’ve also moved into a new house after living in the trailer park home of mine for almost seven years. It is one of the most beautiful houses I have ever lived in. The bathroom is the star of the show. Probably the most beautiful bathroom I have ever had in a house. The mirror seems to stretch across the entire room and looks like it’s out of one those rich mansions I have always longed to have.

I won a contest run by vitaminwater back in September 2018 and received a choice of either accepting a paid trip to New York, Chicago, or Los Angeles or accepting a $5,000 check. I chose the check obviously. The check came in the mail that I was super excited about but…here’s the catch…it may be fake. I took it to the bank and tried to cash it but they were very skeptical about it calling up random people and trying to contact the company, HelloWorld, that sent me the check. They gave me a website and number to reach. I tried both of those methods but haven’t had much luck yet. There is only one other option left on my quest to figure out if this check is legit or not: going to Southfield, Michigan and getting an answer straight from the horse’s mouth. I will wave that 5k check in front of the CEO of the company if I have to try to see if this check is real and not just a marketing scam. I don’t think it is because why would they go through all this trouble, waiting 8-9 weeks to send me it in a UPS envelope, just to send me a fraud check. Well, if anyone there at the HelloWorld HQ says “oh we don’t know what that is, you should probably contact so and so” or “we really can’t help you with that since the contest was over months ago and we are no longer answering questions” then I’m going to be really mad, pissed actually. But if they say “oh yeah, this is a real check made out by our company, it is safe to cash it” I will literally jump for joy. Guess first thing I’ll do is go out and buy a new iPhone. Then put the rest in a secure savings account and let it build interest. Die a rich man.

Until then my hopes and dreams are on hold of being set for life.

Faces in the Crowd

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Who am I?
Who are you?
What’s the deal?
Will we see it through?

We are just travelers
Walking along this road
Not knowing where it leads
Where it will go

We’re like leaves in the breeze
Sand on the beach
Salt in the ocean
Dirt on your feet

I’m just a basic man
Running down the dream
But I get lost in the crowd
And no one can hear me screa

Don’t really care
Gonna cuss and swear
Getting so excited
That just raises my hair

Raise a tall glass
To the good times
This is your life
Now go and be just fine

Gotta refresh
Gotta be new
Gonna sing the words
And I’ll dance with you

Because in the end…

We are just…

Faces in the crowd
Faces in the crowd
Faces in the crowd

Got nobody around
To make us feel proud

Are we just a number
Do we matter at all

Cuz in the end
We’re all going to fall

Yeah, faces in the crowd

And we’re all going to fall

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Get Hungry Again

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The blogging year for me hasn’t been quite that great. I’ve posted less and have lost focus on keeping a consistent style. This stems from the fact that I have started to care less about running a blog and more about just enjoying my life as it is and feeling free to do what I want, like rediscovering the joys of watching YouTube again and playing video games. My purpose with blogging is it to simply learn how to write and express my thoughts, in ways that I have a hard time doing out loud. Sure I want to become successful at this…someday…but I don’t want it to become such a burden in my life that I have no time for anything else anymore. That is why I fallen off the pace so much because following a daily posting schedule was just proving to be too hard. But I guess I need to get motivated again in order to continue blogging with a purpose. Getting hungry again means looking down the road and figuring out my goals, whatever they may be. I don’t care if it isn’t always shiny and full of luster or that I’m hitting the right buttons each time, I just want to make sure I am still having fun and actually feeling like I have a life.

There are so many smart people in this world, many of them way smarter than I am. I am always envious to be on their level, to think and act like them, because there is something so brilliant in taking life for more than what it is.

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Marathon Runners

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Life is a marathon, not a sprint

Full of ups and downs that take your breath away

You won’t reach the finish line in one night

But you can definitely start toward it today

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Things I Hate About Valentine’s Day

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Valentine’s Day is that mushy holiday that I’ve never really cared for (basically because I’ve never had a reason to). It just comes and it goes. I was going to wait until next Valentine’s Day to publish this but since it has been stowed away in my drafts for a while, I thought I’d publish it now.

Here are ten things I dislike about this annual celebration, said to have originated way back in the ancient Roman times, from a number of saints named “Valentine” (who the actual one it’s named after is an extraordinary debate):

  1. It’s such a manufactured holiday
  2. No one cares about the single guys
  3. People with diabetes are the minority
  4. What the hell is a Cupid?
  5. We spend BILLIONS on worthless Valentine cards that get thrown away
  6. The one day of the year where couples sweep their troubles under the rug, and then pull them out again the next day.
  7. You forget about the credit card debt from Christmas and buy that expensive ring for your spouse.
  8. Like Halloween, it comes and goes really quickly and has no lasting memory
  9. All the fake, empty “Happy Valentine’s Day” greetings you’ll get at the office.
  10. It doesn’t make February any less boring.

This is a first in a series of “Things I Hate” posts.

Pineapple Musings

Now wear did that pineapple go? I swear I placed it on a counter somewhere but my memory has failed me. It’s an odd looking fruit, indeed. Did you know that pineapples really exist in the ocean? The taste of pineapple can be described as spicy, sweet, and sour at the same time. A taste is left in your mouth that makes it hard to eat more pineapple later on.

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Road of Punishment

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The rain falls down,

Agitated, agitation

Welcome to desolation,

Better cover your eyes,

It’s a cruel world out there

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Blank Minds

I draw up a blank canvas

The only one that knows my shadows

Where nothing good comes out

The art has died

A sudden derailing death

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Left Brain/Right Brain

When I take up something for the first time, I prefer to learn by a trial by error basis. If at first I don’t succeed, I will try again, changing something that I did, adjusting my abilities. Trying to be perfect all at once won’t give me the the thrill of victory later on. Always having a milestone to reach motivates me to do better.

We are born with basically two kinds of brain, the analytical, fact based one, and the colorful, creative one. The strengths of either one are purely determined by genetics and other factors, such as the environment one grows up in. It is interesting to see how the brain ended up like this, so perfectly arranged with traits organized into their own pools. Our evolution must have favored the best of both worlds and what better than to have them side by side? I wonder what a person with just one half of their brain is like. Would they be purely analytical or artful or is it not as straightforward as the picture shows?

I like to say I use both sides of my brain, the analytical and creative side, fairly equally. I can crunch the numbers and dive into the data when it is needed, and launch a wave of art and vivid storytelling, but it is to say that different emotions and moods activate different parts of each half, some mixing together.

It’s hard to say if I am a more visual learner or audio learner, because both methods work well for me. Pictures seem to present the idea in a bigger and brighter form, right in my face, sinking into my mind faster while just hearing the words helps me analyze and form the images and patterns myself, helping me memorize without the need of actual pictures so I can retrieve them later on.

Trying to learn something, such as the guitar, with a video, is difficult because I have to keep going back and reseeing bits and pieces if I don’t fully understand it at first. Seeing it demonstrated in picture form slows down the learning process so I can learn it at my own pace. When the teaching isn’t going faster than I can comprehend something, I can easily learn and practice. Group learning is okay for me sometimes because everyone can contribute but when the faster learners start demanding that the level of difficulty be raised and the teacher starts to speed up for them, while expecting the slower learners to keep up, I easily get lost and fall behind, trying my best to catch up before completely throwing in the towel.

When I look at the brain picture above, I immediately lean towards the right half of the brain. All of the words contained there, creativity, passion, poetry, freedom, peace, love, best describe my personality which is lighthearted and easy-going. I’m definitely not hard edge and my vivid learning process with pictures proves that. There is a science book that a friend gave me the other day; I have yet to read the first chapter. I can watch science in videos but I have a hard time reading it.


What’s your learning style? Do you prefer learning in a group and in an interactive setting? Or one-on-one? Do you retain information best through lectures, or visuals, or simply by reading books?

Share Your World 2016 Week #1

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  • As a child, who was your favorite relative?
  • If you could be a tree or plant, what would you be?
  • What would be your preference, awake before dawn or awake before noon?
  • Would you like to sleep in a human size nest in a tree or be snuggled in a burrowed spot underground?

The Answers:

1.  My favorite relative was definitely my grandma Norma, who used to look after me all the nights while the girls were out at dance class. She had iced tea, beanie babies, and a big box of toys that I liked to get into. She died in 1999 before I barely got to know her though.

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2.  I’d definitely be a tree, so I could see over everything and be the supplier of food for the humans and other animals. Even if they chopped me down, I’d still be reincarnated as paper and glue!

3.  I’m a night owl, so awake before dawn. I like to be alert of all things going on.

4.  My favorite way to sleep is being bundled up in a cozy space, tucked away in a corner, lights down low, so I’d definitely be burrowed in the ground like some hibernating animal. I’d be too out in the open and exposed in a human sized nest, which sounds really absurd.

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