The Changing

My whole world is changing

Things aren’t the way they used to be

I feel the past slipping away

And the future calling for me

My dreams must not stay dreams

They must come true some day

For I am more than just a number

Uniquely I am

Ready to launch

Away from that vanilla sea

Of monotony and boredom

But the gravity will always

Bring me back down

In the very end

 

 

It’s Over

It was nice knowing you
But now that I know the truth
We can never see each other again
Because of the safety issues
The walls came crashing down
Those skeletons came out of the closet
I really thought you were a catch
But I was naïve and void of knowledge
And know that I know the truth
I can finally forget and let you go
I might spot you in another life
Twenty, thirty years who knows
We’ll just nod and go our separate ways
Not wanting to start anything anew
It was nice knowing you again
I’ll always have that perfect first memory of you

Waiting

I’m waiting for her

To see if she cares

To see if I’m important

To see if I should be there

There are better things to do

Then sit by the phone

And wonder who will make the next move

I could be achieving my dreams

Advancing my degree

For the first time in weeks

My head feels clear

Feels clear to move ahead

To make leaps and bounds again

With no one holding me back

But in the back of my mind

I still want her

To talk to me and be the chase

To have the tables turned

And her missing me

An Overcoming Aspie

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I’ve been overcoming something that had plagued me for most of my life. Being locked away in fear and anxiety, afraid of the outside world, afraid of interacting with others.  I don’t think I’ll ever quite be “cured” but I sure feel a lot different now. I feel like I am able to function in the real world and do the same things that others do. Having a repetitive activity everyday helps keep me on track and develop goals for the day.

Now meeting others who are on the same spectrum as me interests me a lot. So far, I’ve met four others who have Asperger’s: a student from high school, one from a college class, one on the WordPress platform, and a girl who I want to call my girlfriend but still am figuring out if it will work or not, being miles apart with no certain date of seeing each other again, other than on Skype. Learning from what they are going through and how they are dealing with it has opened my eyes up to another world, one that I previously thought was shunned and misunderstood.

The truth is that we are an incredibly special group of people, with special abilities and talents. It’s these special skills that pave way for some truly great discoveries.

I don’t believe anyone can fully outgrow autism, and if they do then there is definitely was a misdiagnosis. They can learn to cope with it and blend in with the crowd, but it will always be there, always coming out in a situation that isn’t so comfortable for the person.

I don’t have much trouble with large crowds, but too much noise definitely will make me nervous, such as loud car stereos and loud speakers in a theater. I have certain habits I can’t help and they act as stress relievers, such as right now where I am waiting for a response from my girlfriend. God, it drives me crazy.

I still need my alone time, in order to recharge my batteries, to think and reflect. The bonuses of being alone mean being able to read and write more. I used to always want to be alone, used to avoid any social gatherings, but as time went on I realized how hard it was to live and experience the world. Having more friends means more opportunities and fun.

The last ten years, from when I finally decided that I was going to start on the path to beating this, have been quite amazing. I have transformed and evolved into an entirely different person, one who is now not afraid to try new things and step outside my comfort zone. I’ve probably had more effective conversations with people, including my relatives, than I had in the 17 years before the new beginning. A New Hope.

Getting out and meeting people will always be a challenge for me. Even getting away from home is hard. It takes a lot of effort and courage and some workarounds in my routine in order to fit a new relationship component in there. The great thing about Facebook and the Internet is that it is easy to develop and maintain relationships online now. It’s always easy to get to know a person’s personality, for better or worse.

Marathon Runners

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Life is a marathon, not a sprint

Full of ups and downs that take your breath away

You won’t reach the finish line in one night

But you can definitely start toward it today

Marathon

The Eyes Have Seen

My veteran eyes
I have seen the pain
The death and destruction
Everything that is wrong
with humanity and beyond
The selfishness and greed
And now I see you
And my heart breaks
Because I want you so much
But your eyes return a cold stare

Eyes

 

A Thousand Rainy Years

Hi, My name is Bayleigh Friday, I am currently 20 years old with the terminal lung condition called cystic fibrosis. All my life my Mother has struggled to get me back and forth to my appointments, we come from a low income family and with my mom being single it was very hard to take care of both me, and my two sisters who as well has health issues that are hard to manage . We have moved from Jackson MI,To whitmore lake MI in 2012 to be closer to my specialized doctor for my Declining CF health, I’m raising funds to help me get back and forth to all my apointments which adds up, My mother had difficulty working all her life balancing between my health and enough money for my high calorie food diet and trips back and forth to the hospital, And now that my lung functions are at 33% I’m getting closer to my Double lung transplant.
Once i get on the list my mom is going to have to quit her job to be by my side to support me threw it all, and we wont have any extra income coming in.
We have no where else to turn for funds to help support me and my family.
It would mean the world to me because I always had a hard time growing up and trying to have a normal life with what I have, I would be the most thankful girl in the world for any donation possible.. Thank-you for reading my short story.

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She died today. The doctors didn’t even get her on the list for a double lung transplant, which was needed ASAP. Money was raised on GoFundMe to help the mother pay for hospital expenses but none of it really matters now. I’m sorry that I write another about sad story, another tragedy. She was barely 20 years old with still a long life to live. My youngest sister’s best friend. The what ifs of what could be made of a future life come into play. She could have been anything she wanted to be, like an artist because I heard she was really good at painting and drawing, but an unfortunate illness and being dealt the wrong cards by an uncaring God halted that.

And her body will return to the earth

To refertilize the soil and nurture the green growing plants

Completing the eternal life cycle

Of a thousand rainy years and many more

Now just a memory etched in stone

A young life so fragile and broken

To return in another form or so

And view the world through happier eyes

Wake Up and Achieve

You sometimes have to do more than just “dream on”

What’s one piece of great advice you’ve read recently? Or what’s the best bit of wisdom you’ve ever received? 

“Always follow your dreams” – a message I saw on a billboard the other day while going down the notorious 1-94 in Michigan. Dreams are there to act upon. If you don’t wake up and start doing something about them, they will never come true. The dreamer is a hopeless soul; the doer is the one with most success in life. Dreamers believe but never achieve; Doers believe and go right ahead getting done what needs to be done. They don’t worry about the results – they learn to look at the bigger picture and see what they can do better.

If you ask some of the greatest chefs in the world what they did to get to their level of mastery in the culinary world, they would say they had to start right at the bottom and work their way to the top. They would say they didn’t have a shortage of days where they just failed miserable and were critiqued badly, and where they kept hearing about the famous chefs above them opening 5-star restaurants and wondering if they were silly for thinking they could possibly do the same thing. But they kept fighting and kept their head above water, continuing to learn and grow and eventually get to their current spot in life

I want to be a doer but the dreamer side of me is still quite fascinated by the mythical thing known as success. A couple of times I’ve tried to act out these dreams of mine only to realize the tough reality: achieving them takes so much effort and a lot of luck. Much of achieving your dreams requires actually having other people around you to help, to collaborate and pitch in their own creative ideas. But when your people skills are not very good, going it alone always feels like the best choice, even if it would be extremely hard to achieve what you want to do.

My piece of advice, based on my previous experiences, is to not let the negativity get to you. Shut out the voices that say you’re not good enough or not talented enough for your dream profession, whatever it is. Most of all, block out the haters that try to destroy your confidence and keep you from continuing on your path. Or leverage all of the negative talk and use it to make yourself the best ever. The grass is always greener on the other side – look to the alternatives to see what could be better.

Aerosmith tells us to “Dream on…dream until your dreams come true” but the song should really be “Wake up…wake up and make your make your dreams come true”. Your dreams are hopeless without a plan set in motion. Like building a skyscraper, it always starts with a solid foundation.

A Piece of Advice

Stay Forever Young

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The road of life

I have set my mind on living every day from now on with as much verbosity and energy as possible. Make every day count because I will not get that time back.

I’ll only be 24 for about another month and a half. Next stop, living as a mid twenty something. Life is going to feel radically different because life isn’t slowing down anytime soon. The train is moving fast and events are flashing by my eyes. The world isn’t waiting around for me. It’s go time.

Here are some things that I am doing to stay young and active:

  • Go swimming nearly every day this summer
  • Try something new everyday
  • Think positive thoughts
  • Exercise
  • Laugh
  • Enjoy my favorite activities
  • Hang with loved ones and friends
  • Watch old favorites on Netflix (That 70s Show)

The road of life is a long and rocky one. You’re not going to always have a good day. Traveling along this road is full of adventures (and misadventures). Even when a storm is ensuing, it’s best to keep your head up and battle through.

Discover Challenge: For Posterity

Rags to Riches

Steve Jobs

“Don’t ever change” they said. “Always be yourself” they said. Well, I have to tell you that following those two things would not get you very far in life. You would be stuck with a 9 to 5 job and a mediocre lifestyle. It takes a little more effort to propel yourself over the top. Transforming to make your life better takes guts and determination.

The road from rags to riches is full of awe-inspiring transformations. From J.K Rowling to Oprah Winfrey to Tom Cruise, there have been numerous people that had to fight to get to where they are today.

Here are 33 inspirational quotes from the late Jim Rohn, American entrepreneur, author, and motivational speaker. His rags to riches story inspired many other’s success stories:

  1. “If you don’t design your own life plan, chances are you’ll fall into someone else’s plan. And guess what they have planned for you? Not much.”
  2. “You cannot change your destination overnight. You can change your direction.”
  3. “When you know what you want, and you want it bad enough, you’ll find a way to get it.”
  4. “The only thing worse than not reading a book in the last ninety days is not reading a book in the last ninety days and thinking that it doesn’t matter”
  5. “The worst thing one can do is not to try, to be aware of what one wants and not give in to it, to spend years in silent hurt wondering if something could have materialized – never knowing.”
  6. “If you are not willing to risk the unusual, you will have to settle for the ordinary.”
  7. “We must all suffer one of two things: the pain of discipline or the pain of regret.”
  8. “You have two choices: you can make a living, or you can design a life.”
  9. “Happiness is not something you postpone for the future; it is something you design for the present.”
  10. “If you really want to do something, you’ll find a way. If you don’t, you’ll find an excuse.”
  11. “The challenge of leadership is to be strong, but not rude; be kind, but not weak; be bold, but not bully; be thoughtful, but not lazy; be humble, but not timid; be proud, but not arrogant; have humor, but without folly.”
  12. “Don’t wish it was easier wish you were better. Don’t wish for less problems wish for more skills. Don’t wish for less challenge wish for more wisdom”
  13. “Motivation is what gets you started. Habit is what keeps you going.”
  14. “Discipline is the bridge between goals and accomplishment”
  15. “You are the average of the five people you spend the most time with.”
  16. “One of the greatest gifts you can give to anyone is the gift of your attention.”
  17. “Days are expensive. When you spend a day you have one less day to spend. So make sure you spend each one wisely.”
  18. “Success is nothing more than a few simple disciplines, practiced every day.”
  19. “Motivation alone is not enough. If you have an idiot and you motivate him, now you have a motivated idiot.”
  20. “Formal education will make you a living; self- education will make you a fortune.”
  21. “You cannot make progress without making decisions.”
  22. “If you want to be a leader who attracts quality people, the key is to become a person of quality yourself.”
  23. “Profits are better than wages. Wages make you a living; profits make you a fortune.”
  24. “Learn how to be happy with what you have while you pursue all that you want.”
  25. “Don’t join an easy crowd; you won’t grow. Go where the expectations and the demands to perform are high.”
  26. “Your life does not get better by chance, it gets better by change.”
  27. “Miss a meal if you have to, but don’t miss a book”
  28. “Poor people have big tv’s. Rich people have big libraries.”
  29. “The greatest gift you can give somebody is your own personal development. I used to say, if you will take care of me, I will take care of you. Now I say, I will take care of me for you, if you will take care of you for me. ”
  30. “The more you know, the less you need to say.”
  31. “You must either modify your dreams or magnify your skills”
  32. “Everything you need for better future and success has already been written. And guess what? All you have to do is go to the library.”
  33. “Work on yourself more than you do on your job”

Source: http://www.slideshare.net/GundarsMinalgo/33-inspirational-quotes-by-jim-rohn

Daily Prompt: Transformation